eye-openers

The guy that i'm talking to now (prince) has been making more of an effort this week to be more available. he asked me when i was free during the day, so for the past 3 days, he's called me during my break to talk to me while he does his work in his office. i really appreciate his efforts, but today we had a convo that hurt my feelings (you know i'm sensitive). we were talking about how busy he is with work, and how he appreciates that i am understanding until i get fed up and upset and act meanly toward him for not giving me as much time as i feel i deserve. i told him that i can't get to know him as well as i want to if i only talk to him in daily 10-minute spurts. so then he said that he thinks that not being able to talk all the time is a good thing (first blow to my ego) because if we got to talk to eachother all day everyday we'd fall for eachother. So the fact that he doesn't want to fall for me is the second blow to my ego. i know he meant it as we'd be only setting ourselves up for failure if we fell for each other because of the distance, but i would really like to call him mine. so after a few moments of speechless silence, i asked him "so what are we doing then?" and he said "liking each other from afar...but you know you're my boo-boo". i didnt like that either...i'm tired of just talking to guys, it really does get old...after about 5 years of being single and mingling...i want someone consistent and good to me. today was just an eye-opening day because he asked me later (i know! 2 real phone calls in one day) why i would possibly set myself up to be hurt in the future, since i know he likes to work but i don't like him being so busy all the time. i'm not trying to set myself up, but talking to him is something to do right now...basically, i'm swimming in the deep end with the possibility of drowning, but i know how to float...
ps--i guess its that time of the year for Dimples to pop back up...just when i stop thinking about him every single day, he sends me a fb message just saying hi. i am still in serious like with him...and i know i'm going to see him at homecoming. i've just got to make sure i look fabulous...prince or dimples? i feel like both relationships are possible, yet so unattainable...well,til next time, ciao!