drama for nothing

so all of my drama from saturday with my kappa prince was apparently in my head and all for nothing. i am really getting tired of being alone. i would love to have a boyfriend, but does having a boyfriend mean that i have to do things i don't wanna do?? like drive to delaware at 7pm only to leave at 6am the next morning just so we can spend time together? i've never done the long distance thing...my last real boyfriend was 5 years ago. wow, i hadn't realized it was that long ago.
this new guy, the kappa prince looked promising. but all that glitters is not gold, and he is getting duller and duller by the day. he got really upset that i wouldn't drive to delaware to spend time with him sunday night, even though i told him that i had work at 8am the next morning. he wanted me to leave at 6 and drive straight to work from DELAWARE!! i've asked sooo many people, and everybody agreed with me that his request was asking a lot and doing the most. especially since we've only known eachother for a week. i think he got really invested really quickly and now that he sees that i'm not where he is just yet, he's starting to pull back. i used to hear from him all day every day, and now we talk for about 20 minutes once a day. i want to get to know him first before i dive into a relationship with him. i don't know him, and i have to protect myself...not to mention my heart.
i really hate how inaccessible he's been lately. we'll talk about it the next time i actually get to talk to him. it's weird, but i can tell by the way that i'm dealing with him that i've grown up a lot. i can express myself a whole lot better than i've been able to in the past. like the fact that he had an attitude with me sunday night when i called him to talk...i let him know that i didn't appreciate it, and i thought he was over-reacting. normally, i would've kept all of that inside and apologized. i just don't see the point, especially since i didn't do anything to apologize for. sigh...i'll let you know what happens next....ciao bellas!