fixing me...

Wow, almost a month later and i'm finally posting again. i need to fix a couple things in my life, like one, stop being ashamed of my God. whenever i'm at church and i see a young couple sitting next to each other, i get so jealous because i want to be able to come to church with the guy in my life. but i never talk about God when i'm with the guys that i talk to. church i such a big part of my life and the last two guys i've talked to don't seem to be that interested in getting to know me. i want someone to ask me questions and genuinely try to find as much as they can about my life, my likes and dislikes, what makes me the happiest and what makes me cry. there has to be someone out there like that, who i don't consider to be just a friend.

this new guy i'm talking to is cool, but i'm losing interest. i don't believe in horoscopes, but i am sooo a gemini. nobody can keep my attention for longer than a couple months, but when they do it hasn't ended up well. i'll start to lose interest, and then he'll do something to bring my attention back to him, but after all that i usually fall hard and then the guy pulls back...sigh. i'll figure this whole dating thing out one of these days...all i have to say for now. ciao bellas!