my life...my life...my life

Once again, its been a while since I last posted anything. My life...my life...*sigh*my life. I'm still in between guys and I don't know why I keep finding myself here. I went to a friend's gathering the other night and met a guy that I'm almost certain is not my type but we had great conversation and he asked for my number so I gave it to him- at this point why not? So he's been texting and calling and so far so good. We have our first date planned for tomorrow and its sushi (one of my faves) so I'm excited. I'm just becoming reluctant to even talk to anyone anymore bc of the way things continue to turn out. I feel like I'm being open, I'm trying new things and considering putting myself out there but with the same results-girl meets boy, girl has great time with boy, boys falls hard, girl starts to fall, boy pulls back, girl loses boy. Its happened with kappa boy, dimples, kappa prince, and now JJ. WHY?? What am I doing that makes them notice that I'm a great catch but just not great enough to hold onto? My friend Miami Mami said that dating is more about finding out about yourself than the other person. So with this newfound wisdom I'm gonna take a different perspective on this date tomorrow and of course have fun. Today after school I decided to conveniently run into Ken Barbie. I'll call him that bc he's absolutely gorgeous. He was interested in Shannon last year which kinda turned me off but apparently nothing materialized from that. He claimed he thought I told him I was off the market but I have no idea where that came from. I went to hug him goodbye and he kissed me on my neck and it sent shivers through my body. I had to go sit down for a second to compose myself. I told him to hit me up and I really hope he does. Bc even if it doesn't work out I'll at least have the memory of sitting across from this fine man once over dinner. Sigh, my life...my life. My. Life. Ciao bellas!